tempus

If I were a time traveller, I would go to myself as a child, and say I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry it didn't happen. I'm sorry. I'm sorry what you're dreaming of now won't happen. I'm sorry your life will twist and ravel and shrivel up. I'm sorry I can't fix it. I'm sorry that whatever you're doing, I will be ahead of you fucking it up. I want to save you, but I can't.

do you really

Sometimes I really want to give up blogging, but I don't, because I don't know if I really want to.

I don't know if I should give up something that matters to me, and it should -- at least a little bit or I would have long stopped by now.

Sometimes I don't really want to because I feel like I've already given up so many facets of myself, due to disappointment, due to disillusionment, due to being jaded in general, like a plain smooth stone that gets scratched over and doesn't gleam anymore, can I really afford to give up another one? When will I run out?

another video

Here is another video I made, I'm not quite sure what to call it. Experimental comes to mind, but don't know if this is considered experimental, it's just random spliced shots of the world zooming by while I'm in a cab. Music video comes to mind but ehhh not really. I just really liked how the colours whooshed across the screen while my camcorder was zoomed in. It's probably not very interesting unless you're weird or you really like rotoscoping (kinda).

Sometimes I sound like this guy I used to know, who was complaining about his Vaio one day. This was before I got mine, so I said 'okay, you can always give it to me' then he said 'I could sell it to you'. Then he talks about how he got it for z amount, e years ago, and should have deteriorated in value about y dollars per year,  z - (e x y) = the amount I would pay. Then he went into this long rant about how it overheats, the processor sucks, the graphic card sucks, it emanates radiation that kills his sperm cells, he can't get laid because it's so ugly, the screen brightness hurts his eyes (okay I made a lot of that up cause I forgot what he said but it was a lot of bad stuff), so it's not really worth that amount I would have to pay.

And then at the end he said "I guess this is why I can't sell my boat either, every time someone is interested I tell them everything that's wrong with it. WELL HELL YES. The trouble is I think I am kind of like that too, but the difference is he works in IT so it doesn't matter anyway, whereas I on the other hand would have to sell my films someday. O happy day.

stuff for sale

Hello everyone. I should really do this on lowyat forum or something of the sort, but I thought I'd post it here first, in case someone I know might want it first. Or if you don't know me, it's fine too, better here than complete anonymity in lowyat :). As some of you (actually nobody wtf) know, I am moving soon, which has inspired extra frenzy in me to be rid of some of my clutter. I'll probably have to occasionally move this post to the top or add new stuff, so you have been warned.

Moving on:

1. Maybelline Clear Smooth #13 Light Beige 30ml

brand new

RM 10 (retail 24.90)

2. Maybelline Clear Smooth #14 Sand 30ml

brand new

RM 10 (retail 18.80 - it was on sale)

3. Toni & Guy Firm Hold Hairspray - for lasting, invisible hold on all styles. 50ml

brand new

RM 6 (retail 9.90 - I think, I'm not very sure. 250 ml is 36.90)

4. Toni & Guy Texture Paste - for a semi-matte textured effect. 75ml

brand new

RM 20 (retail 33.90)

5. Etude House Mini French - it's this black glittery nail polish to do the french tips. 6ml

brand new

RM 6 (I don't know retail either, I think it's around 10-15)

6. Toni & Guy Moisture Injection Shampoo - a replenishing cleanse for softer hair. 250ml

brand new

RM 18 (retail 29.90)

7. Toni & Guy Moisture Injection Conditioner - a replenishing conditioner for softer hair. 250ml

brand new

RM 18 (retail 29.90)

8. Toni & Guy Tame-It Serum - fights frizz, tames and smoothes. 50ml

brand new

RM 35 (retail 59.90)

9. Sasa Twist & Twinkle Shimmer Brush - it's this body powder thing with three different colours. 3.6g

used once, just to test it

RM 25 (retail 39.90)

10. Cyber Colors glittering eyeliner. 4.5g

used once to test also, on the back of my hand

RM 20 (retail 39.90)

11. Maybelline Eyestudio liquid liner in black. 3.3ml

brand new

RM 13 (retail 24.90)

12. Canmake Sparkling Lame Liner in black (lame means something else in french but I don't know what)

brand new

RM 17 (retail 30.90)

13. The Face Shop eyeliner in glitter black.

brand new

RM 12 (retail 18.90)

14. Maybelline Eyestudio Vivid & Smooth Liner in black.

brand new

RM 10 (retail 16.90)

I also have some MAC eyeshadows, in a different picture because they are not in pristine condition like the above stuff. Like I really wanted to use the Toni & Guy shampoo, but then I found some Wella ihampoo in my room and those were from a while back.. (I got the Toni &Guy stuff in September) so I had to use the Wella.

I don't know how to price these cause I have absolutely no idea what retail price is, so please offer if interested. But they're quite old and very lightly used.

Please leave a comment or email me at absolute velocity at gmail . com. No spaces, use @, you know the drill.  (I check my email way too often).

AND PLEASE DON'T SPAM BOT ME! thanks ah.

Things I learnt from The Sims.

1. Don't flirt with other people while your boyfriend/baby is in the same room.

2. Don't have a baby too early in the game.

3. If someone is obnoxious make him/her leave straightaway.

4. Don't eat when you're not hungry.

5. It's very easy to cheat when someone's at work.

6. You never get a full night's sleep when there's a baby in the house.

7. Talking to strangers is okay.

8. Too many toys and your electricity bills go off the roof.

9. You don't know who's been in your bed.

10. Owning a business automatically classifies you as rich.

11. It's okay to put babies on the floor and hope someone else will pick them up.

12. If you ignore pregnant women for long enough they will stop screaming and take themselves to the hospital.

13. If at first you don't succeed, try and try again.